I wonder how long it’ll take for me to just loose it, knowing how fucked up I already am…How easy it would be to end my life with a simple fucking push. I wonder when or if I’ll ever loose it…I’ve came too close already
Had a really fucked up dream I lost it all, and it was so in depth, It made me want to start to fucking hurt myself physically, but I know I can’t, that damage is just something waiting for me..
It ended, I guess…I’m trying so hard to save this and I’m starting to feel I can’t……I’m afraid I might have to make myself listen, just like last time….
Thought about it again, it’s not the first time. I feel this would almost create depression…..fuck…
I get pissed off over a lot of pointless shit. Some good, some bad, but when it happens to me, or attemepts to eat me alive, I’m going to let it. I’m tired of being promised, just as I do back, to only loose it every time I try…Fucking kill me..
Fighting again. My tendencys will get me one fucking day…fuck..
if u rub your boobs together it will start a fire