My mind is set to killing myself right now.
I’m on the fucking edge. So god damn close…FUCK.
I don’t even know what I can do here…
Just in case
I’m thinking about ending my life again tonight, or cutting severely again. Even when I try to defend the things I love most, I still get the pain of loosing them..
Fuck it, who cares, right? A big fat fuck you does nothing but increase it. We’ll see how this weekend plans out….
I wonder how long it’ll take for me to just loose it, knowing how fucked up I already am…How easy it would be to end my life with a simple fucking push. I wonder when or if I’ll ever loose it…I’ve came too close already
Had a really fucked up dream I lost it all, and it was so in depth, It made me want to start to fucking hurt myself physically, but I know I can’t, that damage is just something waiting for me..
It ended, I guess…I’m trying so hard to save this and I’m starting to feel I can’t……I’m afraid I might have to make myself listen, just like last time….
Thought about it again, it’s not the first time. I feel this would almost create depression…..fuck…